I don't know where I'm goin
but I sure know where I've been
hanging on the promises in songs of yesterday.
An' I've made up my mind, I ain't wasting no more time
but here I go again, here I go again.

Tho' I keep searching for an answer
I never seem to find what I'm looking for.
Oh Lord, I pray you give me strength to carry on
'cos I know what it means to walk along the lonely street of dreams.

Here I go again on my own
goin' down the only road I've ever known.
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone.
An' I've made up my mind, I ain't wasting no more time.

Just another heart in need of rescue
waiting on love's sweet charity
an' I'm gonna hold on for the rest of my days
'cos I know what it means to walk along the lonely street of dreams.

Here I go again on my own
goin' down the only road I've ever known.
Like a hobo I was born to walk alone.
An' I've made up my mind, I ain't wasting no more time
but here I go again, here I go again,
here I go again, here I go.

An' I've made up my mind, I ain't wasting no more time.

Here I go again on my own
goin' down the only road I've ever known.
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone
'cos I know what it means to walk along the lonely street of dreams.

Here I go again on my own
goin' down the only road I've ever known.
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone.
An' I've made up my mind, I ain't wasting no more time
but here I go again, here I go again,
here I go again, here I go,
here I go again

A new diary for a FRESH NEW POSITIVE start with a CLEAN SLATE!!!

Unlike White Snake thereI do know where I am going...It is just taking me A VERY LOOONG TIME TO GET THERE!!!

Ive rolled with ALOT of over the last cpl of years and it seems once i get everything in my life balanced something happens and sets me back for awhile

I think i might have learnt some lessons along the way...

Most importantly being that I need to see notice, accept and value myself for the decent good deserving person that i am...I am obviously liked for a reason...LOL

I NEED to PUT MYSELF FIRST and KEEP MYSELF THERE (as far as diet and exercise go)

I NEED TO LOVE MYSELF...ALL OF MYSELF...my weight does not and should not DEVALUE ME or MY SELF WORTH...

I NEED to BELIEVE in MYSELF

I NEED TO KNOW I CAN SUCCEED AND BELIEVE I DESERVE TOO!!!

I think the biggest thing for me is I need to find a balance for my life...Im a single mom to two demanding children and i work nights...these arent two very easy tasks...Im also a Residential Support worker, working in a group home so Im basically caring for another family away from home.Everything i do at home I do at work and vice versa.

FOR MY SELF ESTEEM, SELF CONFIDENCE AND SELF WORTH (TO MYSELF) I NEED TO LOOSE THIS WEIGHT.

THIS IS IT, IM RESTARTING AND REFOCUSING AND I AM GONNA DO THIS IS TIME.

I got a new tatty on Friday...it is a stitched up broken heart in flight with angel wingsI got it to symbolize strength, healing regrowth and moving forward.




LET'S BEGIN

I like your tat..nice. I have one on my shoulder that is my daughters name with a halo above the first letter of her name (which is L) and a rose. Also hanging from it is a cross on a chain much like the one she was buried with. It is a beautiful peice. It is amazing the artistry of the the men and women who do that work....I also have a gift cert I won from a recent fundraiser I was at for tat...when i won it the girl said "ask for Bull" LOLOLOLOL. I thought that was cute...I want one on my ankle...or foot...I think....

My youngest dtr is 19 and she says she wants a tat but doesnt push it..I hope she waits until she is POSITIVE because its a very personal thing. I love mine.

I like your new diary name and your first post was very amazing...it is hard to find time for y ourself but you can do it.....

relly love the tat but whats LB?? (probably something REALLY REALLY obvious that i'm just too ditzy to know!!) your pic you had on the other day was really lovely too...you looked very cute & very blonde!!

KB so sorry to hear you lost a child. your tat sounds very special & what a wonderful way to have your daughters memory close by you always...

Hey girl,

Great first post in your new diary.

It's true, you *do* have to put yourself first no matter what and your body is your temple- have to treat it well no matter what.

I admire you for having two youngsters and still taking weight loss seriously. Kudos to you. You can do it!

Im sorry to hear abt your loss hunI love tats, they are a great expression of one's self and they all tell stories...This is my fourth tat...I plan on getting many more...

Thanx for the compliments on the start of the diaryI needed to start with a bang...I wasn't sure how to do it, HA!

Hey youLB = poundI thought it was obvious but maybe not...prob the caps throws it off...

Thanx, ya the hair is blonder than before but get this I used a darker blonde than before and it went lighter go figure huh, but Ive been spending alot of time in the sun and I believe it is lightening my hair

I love the blonde on me and how it lightens my face but it is to much for me to keep up with...my hair grows so fast so I gotta figure something out...i dont wanna go back to dark...

Heh well thanx, lol...Ive been plugging along for a LONG time...it has been a rough road...

I do need to realize my body is my temple...i think that is the problem and after all these years I still struggle to not stuff my face with sugar and shit while stressed, hurt and defeated ya know...one step at a time...

Thanx for dropping by...

Hey Cinderelly!

I am in Ontario. On the other side!

I hope you are doing well and the weight-loss plan is in the works! It's always hard starting up but once you get into the flow of things it becomes easier.

Keep us posted on your progress!

Ontario cool...how has your weather beenLOL

Ive been on holidays...so I will restart on Tuesday when I can start fresh with a plan and my focus...

Tomorrow I will sit down and lay out my plan for all i expect to do...

cant weight myself cuz Im not at home...I will weight myself tomorrow morning...UGH along with measurements

My goals...

Am going to try The Master Cleanse for at least 5 days if not 7...Im gonna push for 7 days but 5 will be okay...(Starting Tuesday)

For exercise this week (my activity level needs to be low/moderate with the cleanse) I plan to walk in the ams after work, ride my bike in the evenings and do Yoga...try to get some tennis in with the girls.

I think Im gonna make weekly goals...these are my goals for the week.

sounds like a good goal. i am making a goal to do at least 30 minutes of either exercise on the elliptical or the wii. I got wii fit and my fitness coach and the golds gym one so i need to get on the ball. I can't do the cleanse thing cause i can't find the syrup that i need. i was looking forward to doing it.

LOL@how has the weather been....very typical of a Canadian to ask that question. It's been ok so far! I really can't complain....I hate the snow...so spring is truly God-send.

I didn't get any exercise in today because of family and work but I hope to hit the gym tomorrow. I hope your day goes well with the cleanse and the exercise! I don't think I could ever do a cleanse. One needs discipline for that!

It's good to see ya getting a fresh start with a fresh diary relly

Hey you chica, you didn't stop over and let me know you fired up a new place here! I'm liking it so far!

Don't matter, I'm here now, and I'm like that guest that just doesn't leave... you're stuck with me now.

Ooh, and my lovely, talented and pervy friend the baglady has stopped in here too... And Kare, and Tru... I could be in trouble here...

No comparing stories behind my back now ladies, there isn't a word of truth in them anyway.




That's my story and I'm sticking with it.