Cool, I wish I had a free gym to go to.

he he.....

Earth to DW, where you be?

hehe, I'm here! I've been out of town w/o internet access since last Thursday afternoon.

diet kinda sucked while I was visiting family. exercise = fail.

more to come...

More to come? More exercise, right?

Don't you hate that. You never realize just how much you depend on the internet until you don't have access. Makes you wonder how any of these kids now days would survive without it like what most of us did growing up. They wouldn't know what to do.

Well, I haven't updated this journal in quite a while. I think everyone knows what that means :/

I'm honestly scared to get on the scale, I haven't done so in a week and 1/2. It's been two weeks now that I've been 'off the wagon'... I haven't done awful each day, but definitely most. I feel huge! lol

I'm doing better today, mentally and food-wise. I'm back in my safe-zone (my desk at work) where I'm surrounded by healthy foods. I am going to eat as healthy as possible today and tomorrow and face the scale on Wednesday. I anticipate seeing the dreaded 180 again, lets just hope it's nothing higher!

HE'S ALIVE!!!!!



Sorry had to say it.

I know what you are going thru dude. It sucks when you know your not going to be where you think you should or even worse knowing your not going to be there because of what you didn't do.

I was looking at my past couple of months weight and man talk about a downer. I spent the last 8 weeks between 178 and 182.

But rest asured you will overcome. I did and now it is all behind me, just like it will be for you. We all hit road blocks. It what we do when we're there is the real question. You either give up or die trying. In the time I've known I believe you will command and conquer and get threw it.

Good luck....

Well said GGH!

DW, don't worry man. Just watch out for the all or nothing thought process. Don't forget how long it has taken to get this far. Well, its going to take even longer to finish it. As in, the rest of your life. At least in some ways. I mean that is what we want, to be healthy and fit for life, right?

I have been stuck between 193 and 198 for 3 months!!! I'm not happy about it but I am happy about the way I look and feel compared to just over 1 year ago. I couldn't even jog a 1/4 mile one year ago. Today I am doing sprint triathlons, I practically live at the gym and now I'm even attempting mixed martial arts and surviving the workouts! I would have died a year ago, almost literally. I'm sure you can say similar things about yourself. Be proud of those accomplishments and just keep on plodding. You'll get there. In some ways, you already are.

Where you at DW?

You've been MIA for long enough.

Talk to us.

Well, in the past 5 days I've been to Hudson FL, Denver CO, Rockville MD, Wichita KS, and St Louis MO.

I travel for work and have been on the road like crazy. I wish I could say that I've been doing well with my diet, but it's been going really badly. I've been eating dinner (and not the good kind) at 12-1am because of my travel schedule and I haven't exercised in 2 weeks. I feel disgusting.

I have no idea what the scale says, I'm going to get on for the first time in several weeks tomorrow. I'm nervous. I'm expecting the worse... but....

I'm ready to impove and get back to 176-180. If I could stick to this weight range while traveling I would be more than happy

I will write again tomorrow when I weigh-in. I'm going to Houston, TX on Wednesday and Thursday and i am really going to work on a plan to eat healthier and exercise while on the road

Thanks for checking in everyone - I really need the motivation right now :/

Earth to DW. Earth to DW. Come in DW. Over.

He must be on the road again.

At least that better be the reason DW.

I know you haven't quit on us have you?

I hate to say it, but for a while there, I did quit; and my growing waist line proves it. I've been off of the road for two weeks, but have lost control of the diet... badly. Don't even mention exercise... non-existant.

A friend of mine sent me a text message today to see how I was (I haven't talked to her in a little while) and I was honest and told her about my gain. She gave me a much needed kick in the ass.

I'm going running with her tomorrow night and vowed to go grocery shopping IMMEDIATELY to get healthy food.

For the last 8 weeks I've been completely avoiding my weight. I haven't weighed myself. I haven't logged into this website. I move my tight clothes (that were lose a few weeks ago) to the back of the closet. I didn't want to face the truth, and more importantly, I didn't want to stop eating badly.

It has to end. Here and now.

I am going to start logging my food again, diligently. I'm not ready to weigh myself yet (I don't want my failure shoved in my face) but I am going to next week. And I'm going to start running again. I've truly missed it and I'm ready to get back on the road again.

ahh, I feel better. Now to make a grocery list

Well as long as your back now. But the next time I'm going to fly my ass back from Kuwait and your senses back.

Don't give up Brother, you have come way to far to fail now.

Well, I did get on the scale yesterday, afterall. And the results were not nice. I've gained 20 pounds.

20!

Needless to say, that was the punch in the stomach I needed. I've done great yesterday and today (although it's only 930am ) I went running last night, and it felt wonderful. I did 2.2 miles and had a pretty good pace, especially considering I've been out of it for a while. Food was great, too.

I'm happy to be back, and I will be even more happy when I get on the scale again next Wednesday and see a LOWER number.

Thanks for the support everyone (even though I tried to ignore it...) It really made a huge difference!