Yesterday went fine exercisewise. Not so good foodwise.
I managed to pull myself together, put on my running shoes and then I went out. I walked for 2 minutes, jogged for 6 minutes, walked 4 minutes, jogged 5 minutes and walked the last bit home - around 3 minutes.
I also got some stretching done right after. I hadn't really planned it, but I figured, since my brother had taken over the bathroom I could just as well try some stretching. Didn't stretch that much since it hurt like a motherfucker and I didn't really knew what stretches to do. Oh well.
Foodwise yesterday, uhm, not so good.
Breakfast: Scrambled eggs of 4 eggwhites, 1 yolk, 100 g of mixed beans and a glass of milk (250
calories)
Lunch: Thai-wok-veggies and 150 g of mixed beans fryed with tomatosauce and a bit of fullfat cream (ate only half, wasn't hungry) (150
calories)
Snacks: Apple, glass of milk, can of tuna, very sugary cereal, two bisquits (580
calories)
Dinner: A portion of rice with mushroomsauce leftover from yesterday (400
calories)
Snack: 2 pieces of Halloween Cake, 2 glasses of cocomilk (at least 700
calories)
TOTAL: 2080
calories
And that's around 300
calories more than I need. I'm born with a thyorid disease, but it's not so serious that I need medication for it (also, the medication I was on for a few months gave me horrible sideeffects, so I decided it wasn't worth it) but my metabolism for a normal day with normal activity is on 1650
calories and my BMR is measured to around 1100. I should be burning 2100
calories on a normal day, but I just don't.
My problem is my snacking, I know that. But I have no idea how to end it! If I want to lose weight I really can't eat more than 1000
calories a day and it's hard to eat 6 meals a day with only 1000-1200
calories to spend.
What do I do? I'm a part-time
vegetarian as in, I normally don't eat meat except fish, but I'm not religious about it, so if I want duck on Christmas then I eat it. I'm just not that big a fan of meat, I guess that's around how far my vegetarianism goes.
Also, yesterday an other bad thing happened. I smoked 5 cigarettes after not smoking for around 3 days (I used to smoke 20-30 a day) and right now I'm smoking one more. I have one left and I guess I'll smoke it and then that's IT. Done with those ciggies!
I also think I'm about to get the flu. I've been having this weird feeling in my
body and felt a bit weak, dizzy and flu-ish for the last couple of days. Oh well. I've decided that my weekly weigh-in will be at Friday mornings. I really hope the weight will go down soon. Even though I know I said that getting into the habit of exercising was more important, then I guess it was kind of a hopeful lie to myself. Losing weight IS important also right now. Guh. I feel kind of.. I don't know.
My appetite is gone. Completely gone. I'm usually near the death of
starvation in the morning, but today? Not so much.
How do I deal with my snacking? Should I just stay away from the kitchen? I've tried it before, but the thing is, the familyroom is just besides the kitchen and when I sit in the familyroom I can always see the kitchen. My entire family is skinny. My mum insists on cake every night because she doesn't get
fat from them, and there's really not that much support for me to get in this house. I cook all my meals myself because I don't fancy the meat they eat, but it's just so tough. I wish they'd stop buying all those unhealthy and
diet-destroying cakes, pies, bisquits, chocolate bars, chips, candybags and shit. And I wish they would buy more organic fresh food (besides apples, apples are the only fresh fruit we have in this house)
Oh well. Guess I just gotta stay away from the food downstairs if I ever want to shed this weight. I just really want to be in the 150's at New Years Eve. I hope it's doable. Is it?
I want my ticker-signature thing to start moving. Well, we'll see in a few days when I weigh myself.
PS: I'm constipated AGAIN. Too much information, I know, but what the hell. I seriously have got to see a doctor about it, it's not like I'm not getting enough fibers. Maybe I'm not drinking enough water? All I drink during the day is like 3 glasses of water, the rest of my liquids are coffee and milk. Hmm.. Maybe today's
goal should be to drink 2 L of water.