Hi Everyone!

I'm new here and thought I would create my own weight loss diary since I am and have been on my weight loss journey for 10 months now.

A little bit about me:

I'm from Toronto, Canada. I'm 23 years old, I'm 5'1 and work full time.

My story:

In December of 2008 I was full blow depressed about my weight, I knew I was the biggest I had ever been even though I refused to weigh myself. I just looked swollen and I just felt uncomfortable. Nothing fit me anymore and I was having to really squeeze myself into size 12 clothes. I was running out of things to wear and it was too depressing to go buy bigger clothes. I decided I could no longer go on being that weight one day at work when I was walking down a long hallway and my thighs were rubbing together and making a super loud swish swish noise and I was just embarassed because i knew I wasn't the only one who could hear it. That weekend I decided okay its time to face the scale and really turn my life around. I steped on the scale and started to cry when I saw 189 lbs looking back at me...I could not believe I was 11 lbs away from being 200 lbs at only 5'1!! My sister was great to me, she told me I could do this and I agreed. The next day I woke up excited and started my new life of eating healthy and excercising. Today which is 10 months later I am down 60 lbs! I would of never guessed I was capable of being able to lose this amount of weight, I have had such a hard year aside from the weight loss, the love of my whole life and boyfriend of 6 and a half years had planned to propose for my birthday a month after I started my weight loss program and insted blindsighted me and broke up with me for my birthday insted, and it was so heart breaking and such a good oppourtunity to give up, lay in bed and stuff my face but instead i would get up throw on my work out clothes and do some cardio. My heart is still broken but my determination is still there and I think maybe it wouldn't of been if he had stayed with me. I still have about 15 pounds to go and am kind of at a plateau at the moment so this is my diary of reaching my goal. Any comments and suggestions of how I can kick-start the weight loss of my final 15 would be greatly appreciated.


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So today is going good so far, I didn't do any excersice on the weekend and ate a little more then I needed to but am trying to be back on track this week. Yesterday I did well and an hour of cardio- work out dvds. I do Hip Hop Abs and Turbo Jam, I love them both and swear by them. My weight has been bouncing between 133 lbs and 130 lbs so I was happy to see that I was 130 lbs this morning, it have me some motivation for the rest of the day...I hope.

For breakfast:

I had a bowl of instant cream of wheat with splenda and skim milk- 90 cals no fat. 2 slices of Dempsters Body Wise white bread- 90 cals 1g of Fat and a tablespoon of no sugar added apricot jam by Smuckers- 20 Cals/tbsp. And a mushroom omlet made with cheese and chives egg beaters- 70 cals and 0 fat.

For snack:

Apple and a no sugar no calorie energy drink

Lunch:

Salad with fat free honey dijon dressing, Campbells Hearty Noodles soup in Oriental Hot and Sour flavour- 190 Cals 1g of fat and 6 cheese flavoured rice crackers

Dinner:

Lean cusine Chicken Carbonara and a side of broccoli and coliflower

I work at a hospital and one of our very kind patients who works at a bakery brought me monthly baked goods, I usually indulge and feel bad. Today I will just eat my apple and give away the baked goods...I hope

Welcome and thank you for stopping by my journal.
Congrats on your journey so far - you are doing great! Way to pick yourself up and concentrate on what's most important - you! I know you can reach your goal and look forward to following you through it!
Keep it up!!

Thank you so much! Its so nice to have some support and encouragement!
I look forward to following you through your weight loss as well, I think you have done an amazing job and you can only go uphill from here! Thanks again for your kind words.

This week I have been trying really hard and last night I had a moment of weakness that I'm a bit disappointed in myself for. It was that much more disappointing because on Tuesday a wonderful patient at work brough me a huge box of turnovers and pastries from his bakery and i thanked him and actually resisted, I was so proud of myself because he comes once a month with treats for me and I have never once turned them down. So i felt great. All day yesterday I did well, I was very happy with myself because I had lost a pound when I weighed myself in the morning putting me at 129 lbs and I haven't had my weight in the 120's since I was maybe 16! Then late last night around 1:30am actually I was going through my cupboard and I had a containter of Pringles chips that I just keep for company and I picked it up to get to some food behind it (I was making lunch for work today) and realized it was opened. So i thought once taste after not having chips for 10 months wont kill me....well the comercial is so right, you can't have just one! I moved to the couch with them and ate 3 quaters of the whole container! I only stopped because I felt sick! So i kinda feel like I was taking a few steps forward and now I took a few steps back. I know I shouldn't beat myself up but I'm just disappointed because I was really doing well this week and I really want to be at my goal weight by christmas....Well all I can do is start again and try my best. I put the remainder of the chips in the garbage and decided not to bring temptations into my home even if they are for guests until I'm strong enough to resist them.

I thought I would post two pictures, one from when I was in my 180's and one from when I was about 137. I've lost 8 pounds since the "after" pic but don't have a picture...so here is my progress so far.

This is me at 180 + lbs

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This is me at around 137 lbs

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Last week I was sick and didn't get to work out at all and I hated it. But when I wasn't feeling sick to my stomach and when my appetite finally made a come back I did eat well and lost a little more since my last posting. I weighed myself this morning and I am down to 125 lbs. Its pretty amazing to me, I am down 64 lbs all together and I don't think I have been this weight since I was maybe 14!- which was almost 10 years ago!!

My meal plan for today is:

Breakfast: 2 cups of whole Grain Cheerios with 1 cup of skim milk with a bit of splenda

Snack: 1 green apple

Lunch: Campbell's Chunky "to go" soup

Snack: Astro Zero yogourt

Dinner: Probably something by Lean Cusine

Work out: Turbo Jam and Hip hop abs

I am 11 lbs away from my goal weight and I am hoping to reach it by mid-december, if I do it will be exactly a year to reach my goal, it would make my christmas very merry!

your story touched me, really well. the fact that you went to gym instead of eating due to depression really made me smile i ate when i get depressed so this is something that would been a hard choice for me to make and i know it was for you! keep going and congrats on losing so much!!

That is amazing and you are doing great! Huge difference in the pics! Your very gorgeous! I can't wait to see an updated pic at 125! I want to post some more pics too but I can't seem to find any full body shots - I am very camera shy or used to be anyway! Keep up the hard work!

Girl, your progress is ****ing epic! You are gorgeous. I am hovering at 185 right now and I cannot WAIT to get down to your weight!!!! Guess I need to hit that cardio hardcore.

Good luck getting those last few wigglies off~!



~ Mav

This was such a great message it really made me feel wonderful to know that my story touched someone, so thank you so much for that and thank you for your kind words. I read your diary today and I think you are doing so great! You have come a long way and seem like you are very determined change your life. Don't beat yourself up when you have a day, you will always learn something with the bad days and try even harder the next day. Keep up the wonderful work!

Lisa you are such a sweetheart! Thank you so much! I am so happy that I found this website and found such wonderful and supportive people like you! Its so nice to have others who are going through the same struggles who can relate and help you stay motivated to keep going. We both definitly need to take some updated pics, I am/was just like you with the camera shyness but I think pictures are the best way to see all of the changes that we have been through. I am so proud of you for doing well today, don't even worry about that 5 pounds, you will kick it to the curb in no time!

Thank you so much for the support Mav! You put a huge smile on my face. I think are doing amazing so far! 30 pounds is SUCH an amazing accomplishment! With your dedication you will be at your goal before you know it! Keep up all of the hard work, your doing great!