Six weeks ago, my two year old daughter told me I was Fat and then said eww yucky. It was a moment of no return for me. Although my daughter is petite and growing at a normal rate; I have added an entire 120 person to myself.
I haven't cared about what I wear since I was pregnant. Nothing fit the same anyway, and my body was way off kilter. What the hell am I going to do about myself was all that was on my mind. I am currently 231lbs and I am 5'10''. My ideal weight would be 140-150, yet I would happily take 130.
I want to lose this weight so my daughter and I can have a happy fulfilling life together.

Being so big, I find that I have no energy. I don't want to do much of anything. Six weeks ago all that has changed. Just working out everyday for 20 minutes, changing what and when I am eating has started to make a difference. I am down 9lbs. Yay!

Although there are many obstacles my biggest has to be my friends. Afflicted with the same problem; I try to enourage as a group to make our weight loss goal a reality. Most often they choose not to workout, and don't care about what we are eating. I have no problem admiting that I have a fat problem; and I think they have a problem with me not eating like them or with them anymore. Another obstacle is that I need to quit smoking. I need to want to wake up and breathe fresh air; and walk or run. I need to feel good inside and out.
Prior to having my daughter my weight wasn't an issue. If I was more than 160lbs I would work out harder, be stricter with my diet; in general just be more active. With my daughter, it is harder to do those things.


What I eat in a day:
Breakfast is normally a bottle of water, with yogurt and fruit or oatmeal.

Lunch is normally a breadless sandwich or salad; on occasion it can be a bowl of cereal or dinner leftovers too.

Dinner: A protein normally chicken or beef, vegetables steamed or roasted, and a starch like noodles or rice or baked potato.

It seems pretty routine, for me to drink about 9 twenty ounce bottles of water in a day; and I am not a snacker.


I workout generally 20-35 minutes a day. 15 minutes in the morning, 15-20 in the afternoon.
What am I doing to workout?
I generally do a 15 minute workout with jillian on the wii in the morning, and in the evening after supper I do a step arobics video.
I have taken to walking for 45 minutes before dinner when it is warm enough for my daughter. I live in vermont and it is COLD most of the time.



A question that my eating made me wonder: should I be working out the hardest after my largest meal of the day?

I think I will eventually edit my first post, but for now I will look at it as a correction I am working at. I hope to use this Diary Space as a log, also for a question journal, and of course a progress notebook.
Holding myself accountable for everything that I am doing: eating, exercising, changing.


Today I weigh 320lbs at 3:30 Pm.
I have eaten: breakfast Cup of tea 1 teaspoon honey
1 piece Wheat toast plain
Lunch: a breadless sandwich of 2 oz turkey,
one half oz lowfat cheddar cheese
a medium apple
1 whole carrot
16 oz water
Dinner Forcast: Steamed rice and mixed vegetables
Baked skinless chicken thigh

I spent 15 minutes working out with Jillian this morning at 8:30, and I will be picking my daughter up in about half an hour and we are going to the park where I will walk circles around the playground for 45 minutes. in between chasing her down of course.


Breakfast was at 8:30
Lunch was at 1:50
Dinner should be at around 6p.m