10.26.09

5'2", Med., frame; 21, F.

SW - 200
CW - 200
GW - 110

Starting one of these to keep myself accountable. In all honesty, I'm scared out of my wits. Current stats as of today are right up there. I'm often not one to speak openly about my internal struggles, sometimes I do truly believe I fit the stereotype of the closed-off artist - albeit I am nothing of the sort in our school's art department. I'm the overachiever, the one girl in the whole building pursuing two majors and a minor, with a loving fiance, a cat, a destination in mind, a route to get there, and not a care in the world. I've the perfect life, most people seem to assume. It's far from the truth. My own personal battles tend to keep me from enjoying the things that truly do make my life wonderful. And here I am, opening myself up to you guys like I haven't even done for my own mother, let alone the internet, no matter how anonymous it is.

Today was a pretty decent day - got back into my habit of calorie-counting. I was able to guesstimate my calories well enough that i didn't go past 1500 (1460, to be exact), even though i apparently should be sticking to somewhere around 1200-1300. For a rusty first try, i think i did ok.

Going to kick my gear into walking three times a day and doing more physical exertion than I do, considering I spend all of my time sitting on my butt doing homework or painting!

Sometimes it's a little easier to open up to people you don't know.

I think you should be fine eating 1500 calories a day. In fact, more may be needed if you start exercising a lot. If you cut too drastically you may find it too hard to maintain and give up.

Peter; thank you for the info!
Yes, sadly I have found that those closest to me are usually the ones who have the hardest time grasping the idea that I would want to change something about me - and often oppose or dismiss it, believing it to be passing fancy or that I am unable to do so.

10.27.2009

Things are going ok. trying my best to find the wisest choices inside a college cafeteria...ugh D: seems like the hardest task! and trying to also find some sort of balance for eating between classes. Crazy schedule's driving me insane. I can't wait for break!

cal count up to now is 450, which was...brunch. Woke up too late to get to breakfast before class!

Hoping to make it to 1200-1300; possibly more. I'm quite sedentary, so upping them past 1500 would seem to defeat the purpose of dieting if i'm not getting enough exercise in.

End of the day, 10.27.2009

Today, I've found myself simply using my phone's notepad as a way to record the calories in the things i use more accurately, and using CC's texting option to find out the calories in things by having them texted back; it makes it more bearable than having to remember all i ate throughout the day at the end of the night.

I stayed at 1493, to be exact, for today. And I feel good about it!

two days down, several months to go. Hopefully, keeping track of things becomes easier. I've found, however, that I've got a ton more self-will and determination than i thought. I was so amazed at how easily I could ignore the dessert bar today at the cafeteria. Instead, i got a granola bar which totally satisfied me in my room later in the night.

I'm going to have to watch it for this weekend. it's my dear's birthday and since we couldn't do anything today, I bet he'll want to go out on friday or saturday to celebrate. Going out can be the devil sometimes.

10.29.09

Long day!
good grief. My eating today has been extremely weird compared to my eating since the beginning of the week. I remember I started wanting to eat normally on monday...and it's now 10:35pm and almost friday. I can't believe it's been a week (well...a school week, to me). Which means, i get to weigh in on saturday morning.

I'll only be weighing in every two weeks when i go home for the weekend, since that's when I have access to a scale...plus it'll keep me from going crazy and wanting to weigh in every day.

Yesterday my eating was...bad...to say the least. i was fine until about 11pm when i got hungry again and had a ton of cereal. I'm assuming I went to 1600 calories or more, though i cannot be sure.
Today I feel like i completely overate...even though it seems like I didn't. I still think i ate more than 1200, which is what my math tells me to do ...more guesstimating than anything since a lot of my foods did not have a calorie value on them for me to add up quickly.

Note to self, stick to the things you can find info for immediately upon picking them up in the cafeteria.

Otherwise been good! it's Halloween in two days and all I'll be doing is nursing my sicky hubby back to health. At least that cuts out the candy from halloween that we won't be having, hah. Whoever knew I'd be excited to spend a halloween without the candy. I'm afraid sugary things are often my downfall.

Sticking to water for the rest of tonight while I'm awake.

Today's intake: 1200... (or so does the math say)
Yesterday's intake, since i forgot to add it: 1600 (at most, give or take 100)