Thanks, Twinmom. I'm feeling better now. I ate, of all things, a Cup 'O Noodles. A little high in salt, but no more than I'd have in a "normal" meal, realistically. Only 300 calories in the whole cup, and, while it is AWFUL for me, it was just what I needed tonight--hot, soft, soothing comfort food with lots of carbs to steady my nerves.

Had a half of a personal watermelon for dessert, and I'm satisfied and calm.

Also today I've had 1/2 a whole wheat bagel with just a touch of cream cheese and some sugar-free jelly and a vanilla yogurt with cinnamon. Lunch was pb&j (whole wheat bread, reduced fat pb and sugar free jelly).

And, during the "crisis," I ate 6 cashews, but nuts (in small amounts) are healthy.

Total calories for the day: 902 (yes, too low, but remember I was over yesterday. And I just realized I had NO veggies for the day; I'll have to fix that tomorrow.)

I'm ok.

Now, if I can just say that tomorrow night :P

You're doing great...and Cup 'O Noodles are sooo good haha. Everyone should eat them once a week. . At least.

The number will go down because you are doing so well and if it doesn't then you can handle it like twinmom said. Good luck for the meeting and i hope you are having a great day!!

I'm considering making that a rule, AvaJayne Funny thing is, I'm a health food freak. I eat organic, no preservatives, etc. High fiber, whole grains--who knew a Cup 'O Noodles would save me!

Thanks, FavouriteCrayon; I am, actually. I woke up feeling centered and strong. Had a whole wheat bagel (Sara Lee--130 calories for the whole thing, SEVEN grams of fiber and only one gram of fat!). Since the bagel was so healthy, I added a tablespoon of cream cheese (the real stuff; I can't handle the reduced fat kind) and a little sugar-free jam. After coffee and water, I'm at 221 calories and full, satisfied and looking forward to the day

I love, love, LOVE this place! All of you are perfect. I can't imagine how so many great people ended up on the same site!

You are doing good on your food choices. Keep it up.. have a AWESOME Day and don't forget your H2O for the Day

HURRAY! My first weigh in, and I LOST! 3.8 pounds!

I'm so tired now that I don't have to worry about the weigh in. I'm going to bed. I'll talk to all you good people tomorrow


(And hi, JellyBelly--I'm probably a bit short; I've had 66 ounces, but I need over 100 at my weight. I'll work on it tomorrow. Thanks for the reminders. They DO make a difference!)

Hooray! You DID lose!!! See, you do the right thingsand it pays off!

You lost!! I knew you would. wow 3.8lbs thats great well done!! I bet it seems silly now that you were stressing over it. Hope you are having a good day.

Great Job!!!! Your cheering section is going crazy...YAY!!!!!!

You guys are great Thanks for being here. I can't tell you how much of a difference you make.

I'm working this week on eating closer to my 1200 calorie goal every day. Last week, I averaged 1120 calories a day, but two of those days were 1600 calories, which means that most of the week I was eating between 800 and 1000 calories a day. Since I'm diabetic, that's not great.

I need to go back to eating regular meals, but my living situation right now is not exactly condusive to that. Still, excuses are what got me into this mess, so NO EXCUSES! Starting right now, I'm back on three HEALTHY meals a day.

Today:
No breakfast

Lunch:
Peanut butter (reduced fat, 1 tablespoon) sandwich on whole wheat bread and a grapefruit (I peel them and eat them like oranges--no sugar.)

Supper:
Grilled steak, 1/2 plain baked potato, tomatoes (home-grown!) and cucumbers, grilled eggplant and a few frozen veggies in low-fat cheese sauce.

Dessert was half a piece of fudge.

I have breakfast and supper planned for tomorrow, but lunch is going to be sticky. I WANT a tomato sandwich, and that requires a reasonable amount of mayo. If I can't have REAL mayo, I don't want any mayo, so I have to come up with something else. I will eat, though, and I'll eat right

Keep up the good work. Your food is looking better already. You have the right idea making sure you eat properly and i know you will reach your goal soon. I hope you are having a good day!!

No excuses is a great motto! Keep it up!!!

OMG! I almost LOST all of you!

I found this site while I was on the coast, so it has never been saved on my computer here at home. I didn't remember the name of the site, and I was panicing. Finally I did a search on google for my user name and found my way back--WHEW!

I had another epiphany during the drive home today (five hours). I was discussing, AGAIN, what I was going to cook for all the people who will be around this week. My hubby said, "You know, you've been talking about this for three days now. I think you are obsessing about the food a bit too much; these people are coming to see YOU, not to eat your food."

First I got mad that he would suggest I was obsessing, and then I thought, Oh, please don't make me give up THINKING about food, too--and I knew he was right.

Food has basically taken over my life. Years ago, when I lived in California, I owned a catering company. I dated men in the food industry. When I came back home, I worked in resturants. I collect cookbooks and read them like romance novels. I make endless menu plans, shopping lists, eating plans. I have several partially-written cookbooks stored on my computer.

Eating to lose weight takes a certain amount of time and effort, especially since I cook real food rather than using convience foods, but I HAVE to break the hold food has on my mind. I'm still looking for a hobby. IN the meantime, this diary is helping fill up my time

Food:

No breakfast (I HAVE to stop doing that!)

Lunch: Taco Bell bean burrito

Snack on the road: 90-calorie 1.5 grams fat cereal bar--too sweet for my taste

Supper: SMALL hamburger made with super lean (4% fat) ground meat, a very thin slice of cheddar and half a whole wheat bun. I put a dab of ranch dressing (lower cal than mayo), mustard, bbq sauce, tomato and some frech spinach leaves. Had a salad with spray vinegrette, of all things. I did NOT have the mac and cheese

I have calories left, but there's no food in the hous, so I'll save them until tomorrow.

I'm glad your still here!! Your husband is right people are there to see you and the food is irrelevant. Well done with your food you are doing great. I hope you are having a good weekend!!

So glad to see you found us! Lol! I had the same problem once when my bookmarked pages somehow got deleted. I eventually typed in "weight loss forum" on the yahoo page and this was one that showed up, thankfully. I completely understand the food obsession thing. For a while there, I would wake up every day and wonder what I was going to eat for the day. Or there would be something in the house that I really wanted, and I would be planning the day before that I would eat that the next day for lunch. It was strange. But sometimes when you "obsess" about it, it shows that you are in control and not just blindly cooking and eating whatever happens to be around. Just a thought.