Yesterday i decided to take a walk to my gym since it's only like a 15 min walk, it was very nice out so why not. As i started thinking i kept thinking negative like "wow this is taking forever, why can't i lose this damn weight today, i feel so horrible, i just know im going to give up, maybe i'm meant to be big for the rest of my life" Just really negative feelings about myself the whole walk there, i felt like crying it was really depressing. I just want to let everyone know that i've been sticking to my new and healthy lifestyle for 10 days now and i've been very strong about it, my first weigh-in is on saturday and i will get my new weight i hope i dropped at least 5 pounds a little more would make me ever happier. I've been going to the gym 5 times a week, i don't go on weekends because i like to take that time off with my family and go places. Anyway about my depressing mood, i was feeling low so once i got to my gym i always run on the treadmill first so i got ready and warmed up then started to run, i usually was able to run only for about 5 minutes, but yesterday i ran 10 minutes, i was so mad at myself for thinking all these negative things because i was doing so good and i wasn't appreciating that at all, so i ran ran ran until i couln't run no more, i was feeling good i did some more cardio on some other machines and i felt 100 pounds lighter. A little of weights downstairs and i was on my way home 2 hours later. As i was walking home i felt sooooooooo good, i was happy and i knew that i could do it and that maybe negative things do come along with it and that everyone who is trying to lose weight at some point just wished that it would all be over and done with within a day, so im happy that , that was all solved, even though i really hope i never feel that way again, but who knows.
I was wondering does that ever happen to you, where you know you're doing so great and that with patience and time you will achieve your goal but sometimes you jsut think to yourself, it's not going to happen.

Hi MissL,
When I first started out, I had those negative moments too - but as the pounds have come off, I have come to really believe in myself, and what I'm capable of achieving!

For me, the exercising has been what has changed my out look. When I first started walking I could only go 1 to 2 miles tops...now I'm up to 30 miles a week. Last Sunday on my endurance walk (I keep increasing my Sunday miles), the first mile into it, "I thought, I can't do this, I'm too sore from the strength training on Saturday, I'm never going to make it, I might as well turn around and go home NOW before I need to call my husband to come get me" but by the time I got home, and having finished over 7 miles I knew I COULD do it.

I think those negative moments do pop into our head, we just have to remind ourselves how fare we've come in changing who we are and our habits. I never want to relose the same pounds, and that's motivator enough to keep on making progress!

Good for you for pushing yourself at the gym - the high I get walking home after a good work out is SO worth it!!

hey girl! I agree with m2m...the hardest part to weight loss is starting. Once you start seeing results all you'll want to do is keep going. Sometimes like she said i start a workout and 5 minutes into it i think i'm never going to make it the 40 minutes. But...I focus on watching the tv and listening to my music and before I know it I only have 5 minutes to go! It's the best feeling when you're finished...makes my whole day that much better! Awesome job for pushing yourself! Keep up the good work...we're all here for you till the end!

I can't even tell you how often I think negative thoughts like that. It just comes with losing weight, but they pass and as long as you keep going, you'll feel wonderful...and the fact that you didn't give up when you thought you had to adds to that good feeling.

For example, a week ago I could only run for 15 minutes...then I decided to try for a little longer... about 5 minutes it I felt really tired and didn't think I could go for even then 15 minutes but before I knew it, I had ran 40 minutes!! I was so proud of myself. I'm very proud of you for running for 10 minutes! Running is so so so hard at first, but it gets alot easier and it's very rewarding

Keep up the great work!

that feels good to know that i'm not the only one feeling down about this whole thing, it's a good thing but at times it can get to a person , weight is not something one should laugh about and make fun of people who are over weight , it's practically like fighting an addiction to (FOOD) and lazyness. I know when i was in shape i can honestly say now i regret this, but i used to look at over weight people and say wow look she/he is so big why doesn't he stop eating that fatty, and now im in those shoes , and i realize that it's a fight till the end, and you're going to go through a lot of ups and downs until you achieve your goal weight. But i know one thing once i lose all this extra weight i will have much more respect for over weight people who are struggeling for their life basically because being over weight is not just about your looks and the fact that you don't look good in some tight jeans as someone who's thin and in shape, but it's a slow process that takes a lot of peoples life's if something isn't done about it, and i believe that im in the danger zone right now and i know it because my body is probably thinking "WTF" u know because ive never been this big and it doesn't know what to do, and my poor heart is probably running a freakin marathon trying to keep up with me and this weight. Before i came on this site to me it was just look good look good and look good now it's more about feeling good inside and being proud of myself and knowing that im healthy. But i still got a long way to go until that day arrives..ugh!

I'm with you there...although I do still want to look good

OH i agree with you 100% I bet im not the only one on this site that's dieing to fit into some sexy jeans lol without the rolls hanging :P:P:P

Oh, you're definitely not alone there

I certainly want to look better!

It is funny though, I don't really *see* that big of a difference in myself when I look in the mirror. I *feel* it in my clothes, in my watch, my wedding ring, in my stamina and strength, but when I look in the mirror, my vision looking back is still somewhere near my starting weight

I do hope that aspect changes at some point.