Don't worry about how other people see you! That is my number 1 rule. People will pretty much see you how you see yourself. If you think you are pretty and great chances are someone else will too! But if you put yourself down someone will help you do that too! What other people think is NOT important. It's what you think of you!! Have a good day, you are beautiful!!

Thanks, but it's hard to try and ignore other people sometimes.

I know that only what I think should matter, but I've loathed myself for so long that actually being comfortable with how I look seems strange. It seems almost wrong.

Really, I'd mostly like for my girlfriend to be genuinely pleased with the way that I look. I know that she loves me either way, but I feel horrible. I compare us to beauty and the beast. Guess who's who?

6 peanut butter crackers: 180 cals
5 tortilla strips: 78 cals
2 tablespoons of salsa: 10 cals
a burrito: 350 cals
sugar-free strawberry jello: 10 cals

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Hi, thanks for posting in my diary! You look like you're doing great. Here are a couple of things that I tell myself to remember, don't push yourself too hard in the beginning or you wont stick to it, this is a lifestyle change, not a diet!. and focus on getting healthier, not skinnier! good luck and I'm sorry your back hurts, I hope you get feeling better.

Hey! just stopping by to see how your doing. I'm glad your girlfriend is supportive of your efforts. As for the back pain, that sucks, back pain is so debilitating isnt it? I don't sleep with pillows at all, I was in a car accident when I was in college and screwed up my neck and sleeping with a pillow now gives me a migraine. I hope your back feels better soon. Keep up the good work, your food looks good and balanced and I'm proud that your a teen and YOU EAT VEGGIES! how rare is that? pretty rare.

Just stopping by to wish ya HAPPY FRIDAY!!
Have a gr8 weekend,Tammy

Ohman, you have NO IDEA how much I ADORE veggies.

Akfjaskgjakgjag. -Mouth waters.-

Yeah, anyway...

My back feels a little better now. It's been hurting off and on, but this morning it was EXCRUCIATING, and I didn't want to walk around school, being in pain and wincing.

I've been mostly sleeping all day. I was pretty depressed last night and into this morning. I couldn't stop crying... But that stopped sometime nearing the afternoon.

I haven't really been hungry, but I ate this morning out of boredom, mostly. It was breakfast and lunch, though, and it wasn't a lot, so I should be good eating another light snack later and then having dinner.

Because I'm starting to get hungry now.

Since my back isn't killing me, I might go downstairs and use one of my Walk Away the Pounds videos.

I'm so glad it's Friday, just in case my back does something funky again later tonight or tomorrow! I'm fifteen. I'm not supposed to have back pains. -Pouts.-

I'm so sorry you're not feeling well. I can relate to the back pain and the depression. Both suck. Anyway, I'm not a doctor, and I don't even play one on TV, but I do have some suggestions. Listen or ignore as you see fit. *grin*

The back pain -- Are you wearing good shoes when you walk? Supportive, comfortable shoes can make a huge difference.

The depression -- I've struggled with depression before, and I've found that drinking enough water, exercising and eating healthy have made a huge difference for me. Not everyone is the same, though. I'm gonna post a bunch of stuff in my diary about my battle with depression...please feel free to stop by and read. I don't want to post it here because I don't want you to think that you are doing something wrong, or that I am some know it all with a magical cure. Just like weight loss, there is no magical cure.

You are doing great on your journey to be healthier and lose weight. I'm so proud of you for your accomplishments so far. And I'm really glad your girlfriend is supportive, too. That can make a huge difference.

Sorry for being so long winded and serious. Hope you are having a great day!

Thanks for dropping by, blackwdw.

I'm pretty sure that the back thing has nothing to do with my shoes, although I still don't know what it is / was.

I feel fine now, mentally and physically.

I just ate half a bagel (155 cals) and one... and a half eggs, ish. I just kinda threw them in a pan without adding anything and cooked them. I'm lame with cooking, but I was really craving some eggs. They + the bagel was really good.

Not sure how many calories the eggs are, though. Hnn.

But minus the eggs, I've had 783 Calories so far today.

Have you checked out Sparkpeople.com or Fitday.com?
Both have really good calorie counters. Thats what I use & rarely have to look stuff up.

Keep up the great work!!

Well, I can't use Sparkpeople because I'm a teenager.

I'm kinda dumb with the calorie counter things.

So I just went downstairs for about 15 minutes, exercising. It's not a long time, but in those fifteen minutes, I was moving around a lot. I was watching Spongebob Squarepants and walking, jogging, kicking, doing knee-lifts, squats, moving my arms, and then did twenty crunches.

It increased my breathing and made me sweat much more than simply walking around my neighborhood or using videos did.

So I think that if I can force myself to do that kind of thing for longer periods of time, say twenty or thirty minutes, that will be good for me.

Yes, and your parents will likley think you've gone mad! lmao! although, my son does that same stuff non-stop through all his cartoons...but he's 5. Lol.

I won't do it when they're around. Haha.

Onion bread: 170 cals
2 slices of ham (60 cals at most?)
2 slices of turkey (50 cals at most?)
The meat said 50-60 cals per 2oz, but I don't know how much that is.
7 pringles: 70 cals

Total: 350

Plus the 783 from earlier is 1133, and I don't know how much the eggs were... but I'm fine.

Lookin Good!! I found this for you:
Hope it helps

Thanks.

I was guessing around 100-150.

Let's just say I got about 1200-1300 calories in. Heh.