at some point, at least I hope, it will become a habit, and it will not seem like an effort or a struggle -it will become instinctive...

sounds like you're having a rough day and I wish I had magic feel better words for you but alas..

do go out and kick something - but be sure to wear shoes, you don't wnt to break your toes or anything...

feel better and take care of yourself...

Well I always have something kicking me in the ass or someone and life certaintly hasnt been easy for me but what other choice do I have but to plug along...as far as weight loss - how badly do you want it I guess is what it comes down too...

I hope i dont come across as beign a bitch im just tired...lol...

i don't think it was bad rep -i think the reason why it looked different is the person who gave you the rep, didn't have any rep power...

Thanx Mal I will get my steel toes on!

And cerelly you dont seem bitchy...I am the one BITCHING!


I dont mean to be so negative but I feel rotten and I have been feeling that way alot...I just try to spare the forum my greif. The fact of the matter is I am not eating right I am not doing this right.I have got to get some proper nutrition or Im gonna fail but I almost feel like not eating is the easy way to go...now I know that is not right, but I have alot of things I am supposed to do this year and I just feel like hauling ass away from it all. I have a close friend who is about a size 0 and I was telling her how much i had lost and she says just do what I do...dont eat.Now I know this seems stupid but when i look at her and every other skinny successful person i think why not?!? I know why not but still.Ughhhh I am so confused and frustrated.
Now please dont get me wrong I am not saying I am going to starve myself, I know that would destroy my already injured metabolism.I am just having a hard time with making the right choices

I had just considered that...thanx for clearing it up.It didnt really matter I just felt like complaining I guess I might however get some bad rep for that last post

Well girl im running outta things to say - lol - only you can make yourself eat better and put yourself ina better frame of mind and make yourself do this properally and right...YOU KNOW YOU GOTTA DO - SO GO OUT AND DO IT!!!

Im totally here for ya 100% no matter what - if ya ever need or want anythign or whatever...

you aren't sparing us any grief... seriously - if it's on your mind - talk about it -- keeping it inside doesn't help you to feel better... and while we might not have any solutions... there might be alternatives for you - and worst case, there is always someone who's feeling like you are.. and it's sometimes alittle comforting to know you aren't alone in your struggle.

I don't think every skinny person out there stays that way by not eating... but perception is everything... I'll look at some skinny people and wonder how th heck they can eat all that, and drink like a fish and still not appear to gain an ounce... when I look at a double tequilla and can feel my butt get bigger...

every person is different - and what works for one doesn't work for antoher, for whatever it's worth -- doing things the healthy way guarentees long term success and 20 years from now those skinny folks will be struggling but you'llbe kicking butt

hang in there...

Thanx Mal...I just need to get a grip,I try not to ever be an emotional person but today I am.I am just loathing myself and that isnt gonna get me anywhere. i havent confessed much of the truth in regards to not eating right and I have learned alot here about why its harmful.I am gonna do better I dont want to be struggling in 20 years! I dont think I could take it for that long


Cerelly...thanx I am ok...im gonna do it right...just ranting. I think im done

I'm sorry to see you struggling. Only because I know it feels bad and we all wish we were not in the bad times while they're happening. Of course afterwards we can see that they precipitated good changes and growth and involved new learning and lots of positives... but pain and struggle and tiredness are damn hard to deal with at the time.

I know you will get through your down patch and go on to achieve what you are after right now.

I can't be sure exactly what you will end up doing as far as food goes of course, but I feel obliged to say that for me, changing from eating badly to eating well has taken most of the struggle out things as far as food goes. When I feel hungry I get to eat, and my cravings are pretty limited since I started including but controlling my carbohydrates. I only mention this because I want you to know that though we all have periods we struggle with our weight and our programs (including me of course) it doesn't necessarily have to be a struggle every day and forever.

The nutritionist is probably an excellent idea. The last time I went, I was totally fed up with the one I saw, but the truth is that the plan I've used to lose weight has been totally based on the ideas she gave me, combined with the ones I'd been given some time ago by another dietician.

I hope things are looking up for you again soon.

Your like me babe, I want to see results NOW, i just wanna be skinny again.. BLEAH, keep ur head up and u know where u are going wrong and its about u getting urself turned around.. I can tell u what to do and not to do till i am blue in the face, but its u thats gonna do it for urself.. I dont know if ur seeing a dietitian or a counselor but it sounds like ur getting a little depressed.. I go threw that funk every few days when i wake up and see myself still as myself..

However when u need to rant and rave come on over to my diary and post away.. My life has been certainly hell for the last couple days and I dont mind having someone else come on over and tell me what kind of hell they are going threw.. I feel alone at times with all this emotional drama going on and i have a tendency to intervert and pull away from everyone..

Thanks guys...I am feeling so much better today! I was really just throwing a fit yesterday. But I needed to and now I feel better and I am gonna make the neccisary adjustments.I dont usually feel that frustrated...Man I just felt crabby all day yesterday...

Hey girl,
I'm glad you're feeling better today - but I'm just as glad you vented yesterday when you weren't feeling great.

That is what your diary is for - it is a place to vent frustrations and get them out.

I can so relate to what you were saying about just not eating a whole lot and losing weight - but in the long run, our logical side says, it really is about more then just losing weight - it's about getting healthy.

It's a friggin long process, but we are doing it, even when it takes one day at a time!

I absolutely agree with M2M. It's valuable to use this place to explore your negative times. If this process was always easy we wouldn't have bothered getting together here in the first place.

I'm glad you're feeling better though.

Thanx Debi...I am getting real with myself finally, there is def. a right way to do things and that is what I want.I lost the weight before and obviously didnt have the right answers, it came back 10 times faster than I lost it! Thanks again for the encouragment It is nice to know its ok to FrEaK OuT now and then!

good point Felici...I am here for a reason! And I am glad Im here...

I freak out more than every now and again.. trust me -- you're still in the featherweight class of freakouters

I hope today isa much better day for you