Hey Lena,
Sorry I haven't been around, but you seem to be doing really well. Don't let that lady at work get you all upset, you are better than her in so many way by just being able to recognize how wrong she is.

You will definitely get through this battle. I feel like I have a lot of in common with you because I have a lot of built up anger as well, and I'm trying to find ways to express it.

Your dieting and exercising is going to pay off so well, and you will definitely see how strong you can really be.

Just keep doing what you're doing and you'll be much more beautiful than you ever thought you could be. *hugs*

I fount these ways that you can reward yourself if you do something well with your diet. I'm not sure if any of them appeal to you, but it will definitely help in the future.


* Compliment yourself. Write down what you would say to anyone else who accomplished what you did.
* Create an actual plaque or trophy.
* Give yourself badges of honor for different levels of accomplishment.
* Take a vacation or weekend getaway.
* Take a day off from any goal activities.
* Put $1 in a jar every time you meet a goal. When it gets to $50, treat yourself.
* Create a Trophy Scrapbook, where you keep mementos from your accomplishments.
* See a movie.
* Make a grab bag of little prizes. When you reach a significant goal, reach in and get your reward!
* Go for a spa treatment or massage.
* Buy yourself a gift certificate.
* Take a limo ride to work one day.
* Subscribe to a magazine you always wanted.
* Go canoeing or do something outdoorsy.
* Watch your favorite TV show.
* Buy something for your hobby (i.e., car, garden, music, collections, holidays).
* Read a funny book.
* Celebrate "100% Days". If you reach 100% of your goals that day, choose two rewards.
* Find some time to be by yourself.
* Pay someone to do the yardwork or house cleaning this week.
* Fly a kite.

hey all

crocus drop by any time we'll have a cup of tea and relax don't worry about that activity thing. it took me ages but i finally started to move lol

change you so nice and comforting, i really needed to hear those words. so thank you from the heart *hugs*

i finally know how neal armstrong felt making that first step on the moon... it was such a big step for me to go to aerobics class. and to do it by myself, noone pushing me, noone there to hold my hand. i'm so proud of myself. i'm proud of myself lately more than i've ever been in my life lol.

anyway went there yesterday and had a good one hour workout that included hoping, working with weights and strething and i have the most painful and the most beautiful muscul fiber i've ever had. my serotonin level went up the sky yesterday, i lmost broke a tear of happiness after the workout. everyone was so friendly and nice

so, one big fear i managed to overcome. man this feels good. someone on the forum mentioned somewhere theme from rocky... well i can hear it from yesterday. no food ever made me feel this good


*hugs* to all, Lena

just to make a note of what i ate today
breakfast:
kellogs special k with low fat yogurt (i know it's laways the same breakfast, but at six in the morning i really don't want anything else lol)

snack: two wheat cookies with yogurt

lunch: inegral pasta with veel

since i have my lunch at 4pm or sometimes even 5pm i don't have any snacks in between and try to eat only salads for dinner. i know i should start taking lunch to work. i still have to think of what to take lol

dinner: don't know yet what i'll have, probabily some kind of salad with cottage cheese and chicken breasts ham or green salad with tuna.

or maybe eggs with some veggies (is that ok for dinner????)

i'm really starting to enjoy preparing meals for myself. i'm searching for new recipes and trying new things and all. today i had same breakfast and snack, except i had some coffee with milk instead of yougurt for snack. then i had salad: green salad with three types of peppers and i made my own dressing of cottage cheese, a bit of yogurt and some seasoning herbs with two pieces of integral bread with several types of seeds.

i'll be going to my second aerobics class. still having some cold feet. i don't know why since i did it the first time. maybe i'll feel like this until i get hold of the routine.

hope you'll all having a great day Lena

It's great that you feel so good about your diet, Lena! It's a difficult thing to accomplish, so well done!

thanx aaron it really does feel great. i'm changing completely not just the way i eat but the way i deal with things. its such a revelation to me to able to react emotionally in other ways than eating. i guess i'm rewarding myself by NOT stuffing myself. reverse psychology of some kind lol.

yesterday i had my second aerobics class and i was sweating so much but i still can't follow te whole thing because i would pass out considering the intensity. but it felt soooo good. all the negative just went out

i won't be able to do my weigh in today because i'm going on a trip ot of twon. i'm taking Test of English as Foreign Language (TOEFL test) tomorrow morning and i'm so nervous, because it is for my possible entry at masters in budapest. so keep your fingers crossed.

today's going to be a bit of a challenge. i will have pasta with salsa and tuna for lunch, and i'm having dinner later with my friend in a restaurant, and i don't want to eat too much, and she always takes me to places with extra yummie food so keep your fingers crossed for this too.
I WILL TRY TO RESIST!

anyway. see you all on sunday and have a great weekend Lena

If you're having problems with taking lunches to work, what if you made extra of whatever you cook the night before and just take leftovers to work for lunch? That way you could eat earlier in the day. You must be starving by the time you get home!

And you're doing awesome in keeping to your plan! Good for you!

back from the trip
i did pretty good yesterday. i went to a fish restaurant so i didn't have too much to eat, but all in all i think i went over my limit, because at the end of the day i didn't feel very good. i felt like i had rocks in my stomack. so light food for me today. and i got my TOM and had 1 piece of dark chocolate after lunch. really couldn't resist. but i think this is allowed every once and a while


thanx tx for advice. i actually did start taking lunch to work. on thursday i took salad, and on friday i made some pasta with tuna. tomorrow i'll take risotto (left from today's lunch) and one piece of meat. i was starving by the time i would get home, and then stuff myself. now i know i can't do that anymore, so i really am trying to force myself to prepare for next day.

anyway, in past two weeks i lost 4 pounds and i think its great. this means i am doing a good job so i decided to reward myself, not with food or any treat that involves food (i need to stop thinking of food being a reward and my friend) so i decided to have a manicure next week or week after. its a bit expensive here, but i deserve it.

Lena

Hi Lena,
Congratulations on losing those 4 pounds - and more importantly for doing what you need to do to be IN control!

Going to the aerobics class, changing not only what, but when you eat around, those are all steps that will make a huge impact!

Keep doing what you're doing and enjoy that well earned manicure!

thanx M2M the support from you and everyone else really means a lot to me. the bug (i forgot the english word for it, in croatian is bubamara ) is finally moving.
*gives everyone a glass of champagne* (here we have the imaginary non fattning kind)

and another monday... man this was a long day. having my TOM so i'm a bit grumpy but that won't stop me going to my aerobics class no excuses.

ok have to write down what i had today:

1. breakfast: kellogs special k with low fat yogurt
2. low fat probiotic yogurt and 2 small cakes (i know i know...but colleague's birthday... and all... promise to sweat it off this evening)
3. fish and one small slice of white bread. didn't have any other near by.
4. orange and handful of almonds
5. risotto left from yesterday's lunch. its half serving (had enough carbs this morning)

i have some urge to eat something really heavy and greasy and salty... but then i remind that girl in my head: NO WAY!!!!!! I'm not having that discussion again with her lol.

found some great recipes so i'll try some over the next few days, or weeks.

hope you're all having a great day. Lena

i really feel low today. maybe it's the whether. i woke up nervous as hell and with an enormous headache. then i couldn't buy salad for lunch because i forgot my wallet. and i just feel like crying. maybe its just because of TOM, don't know. hope it will go away. i hate feeling like this. it usually makes me eat all sorts of junk, but i'm not letting myself. anyone has a joke to cheer me up?

No joke, but just thought I'd tell you that I know exactly how you feel! It sucks to not feel in control of your own emotions. Sigh. Sorry you're having an off day, hon.

thanx tx. i also hate it and i have this strange sensation that i'm feeling things too intensely lately. someone might say i'm finaly feeling things the way i should. i used to eat for each emotion. angry-binge, sad-stuff to fill up the void, happy-have dinner with friends or celebrate with some special type of food.

at least i had fun yesterday on aerobics class even if i was so tired afterwards. i can't follow the whole routine. it has 30 minutes of intense cardio and then 30 minutes of strength training for arms, legs and abdomen. i really hope, i would be able to do the entire thing without having to stop and catch my breath or strech a cramp in my leg lol.

now my colleague put barry white on...he seems to lift us up when we're down

Hey Lena,
I hope you're feeling better today. I know exactly how it is when TOM creeps up, I feel so emotional too, I'm a basketcase.
You are doing so well with the aerobics class it seems like, even though it wears you out. Keep it up!!