Hmmm, I am mainly concerned with calories, I do check protein, carbs and fiber as well. But I guess I check calories the most... I have found that I am buying things less with ingredients I can't say... not the general rule of thumb, but I have been noticing I have been buying more organic than usual.

I haven't looked at this stuff in a long while, to be honest. I do know that the pump comes from 'acute hypoxia'... fancy way of saying 'not enough oxygen making it to the tissue.' So basically the vessels supplying blood to your muscles constrict decreasing the amount of blood transporation, resulting in less oxygen being delivered.

The pump is the body's acute response to the above, an attempt to flood it with nutrients and start the inflammation process.

From what I remember, there's a lot that can play into it... even nutritional state at the time.

This doesn't answer your question, I know.

I'd have to do some digging for what causes the 'feel good' feeling. I do remember reading something on that once.

Oh yea, and the tingly sensation could be a product of said bloodflow restriction.... like a form of pins and needles.

“Winners have simply formed the habit of doing things losers don't like to do.” Words to live by… As true as the sky is blue and as sure as water is wet. Making habitual that which is arduous and challenging and often times uncomfortable is a sure-fire recipe for success. We are, as people in “decent society”, preconditioned to avoid instances of pain and hardship. To endure as a species we are taught to run in the opposite direction of danger, to avoid confrontation and scenarios of great adversity. Bonded by this common approach to existence, the flock flourishes, a homogenized mass fanning itself in the cool tranquility of the status quo. There is no pressure in the shade, no great struggle. Knowing this, we realize that in order to achieve beyond the limits intended we must leave the confines of that which is safe and challenge what we know to be the accepted norm. We must unlearn and devolve. We must stand in defiance of our predetermined limits. There is a word for those who go against the grain, those who turn left when the rest of the world turns right. Champions. They are the winners… Win or lose.

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This weekend is going to be very draining for me.

Tonight I should try and get some shut-eye early on, considering I have to be up at around 3:45am. I meet my 'friends' at 4:15am at the local Sunoco to venture out on our fishing trip. We'll stop for a real shitty breakfast at this shit diner along the way. We'll be at the stream around 6am. You aren't aloud to start fishing until 8am. We have to get there early to get our spot though. It's usually a good 10 degrees colder at this particular location as it sits down in a dark, wet valley. There will be frost, no doubt. Standing in water up to your waist in that kind of climate is definitely a test of will, haha. Let me tell you. The older I get, the less I enjoy these sort of outtings.... but it is what it is. I'm sure I'll have fun.

Then, I have to leave by 11am from the stream to go meet Gordy (my parter) so we can make it to the bank by 12:30. We are setting up our finances for the business.

From there, we'll come back to my house and go right to work for the rest of the day.

Then, on Sunday, the fishing will start all over again, same time, same place, same damn people. Only this time, I'll end up fishing longer since I have no place to be later that day.

You think it will be fun waking up on Monday?

I smell a vacation day coming!

Not to mention I'm waking up on Monday to the most hellacious (sp?) diet imaginable outside the confines of complete starvation, lol.

pssst -

leave some time to take a shower between fishing and meeting with the bank most bankers tend to appreciate sweet smelling steve rather than fishy steve

hopefully you'll have some fun this weekend... and catch and release some really big ones..

You must be inside my head Steve...I have been struggling with fear a lot lately and this just rang so true.

Thanks.

Haha, I've actually been thinking about this....

Am I going to shower before the meeting or not. I don't know the answer yet... all depends on if I leave the stream on time and how traffic is on the way home.

Welcome.

Now all I have to do is figure out how to beat the fear...no small task

::thinks about steve in the shower::


I like that quote by the way...


There's an extended version of that quote that I have in my quote database

Read steve's signature - that should give you a good starting point

Identify what's scaring ya if you haven't yet... which I'm sure you have. You're smart.

Face it and start chipping away at it one small step at a time.

That's what I've been doing, anyhow, and feeling amazingly fantastic about it. The fear is still there but it's not eating at me how it was. It's just there, driving me.

That seems to be the only way to deal with it...I would much rather have it driving me than eating at me which is what it is currently doing.

It is just a general fear that you are not good enough, or smart enough or that everyone is better than you. It is rooted in a lack of self-confidence. The problem is that it effects all aspects of my life and that is the part I hate.

I try to deal with facing small things but I definately do not like the control it has over me sometimes.

That's a tough fear to manage. It's deep and complex.

Mine wasn't like that. It was very concrete. "Do I have the guts to grab my life by the horns and make what I want of it, no matter the risk?" That was my fear. I was unhappy because I was running the rat-race. The path that people tend to gravitate to naturally in this world without a second thought. The one many walk until they day they die, some realizing the regret of not doing more. Not following their hearts. Others not realizing it living a life of ignorance of what could have been.

I didn't and still don't want either of those.

So I set out to change that. And even things are far from changed at the moment..... I feel a million times better than I did a couple of months ago. Hell, even a couple of weeks ago. I've found that the change doesn't even have to happen in order to transform your emotions. It's the journey toward something bigger and better that drives happiness.... at least IME so far. I'm no expert, just speaking what I've encountered so far.

I'm not sure how I would go about combating the feelings of inadequacies. I guess I'd start by figuring out who I feel inadequate to? If it's someone else, that needs to change. You are who you are and that's final. If it's yourself, it's all about figuring out why? Are you doing what you love to do? If you could change some things about you, what would they be? Are you doing anything to make those changes happen? Etc, etc.... those sort of questions. I feel like I'm preaching to the choir since I know you're good at this psycho-analysis bullshit.

It sounds like such a cop out but I think that a lot of it has to do with being so heavy for so long and hearing the things that people say about you. I was tortured in school as a kid and I know that now, as an adult, that shit shouldn't matter...but the reality is, that it has totally affected how I see myself...and that has a trickle down effect.

The best example I could give is that when I am arguing a case, if opposing counsel makes an argument, my default position is to think that they are right, how could my point be correct? That is not a good trait in my profession. Don't get the impression that I roll over and die on these people, it is just that I have that voice in my head the entire time telling me that they are better, smarter, etc. I could never compare.

It is rooted deep and it sucks b/c I know that there are lots of reasons to think that I am great...believing it is the hard part.

There is more to it than that but it is just an example...