Krystal,
I'm not sure if you actually read Tony's posts. You haven't acknowledged any thing anyone has said.

Go back and read his posts.

You are bound to set up a vicious cycle of under eating then over eating if you continue this path. I don't think that's what you really want.

I hope you're able to find a healthy and *sustainable* weightloss system.

Krystal,
My comments were not made for you to feel defensive over - and trust me, we all vent around here.

My point was, you were saying that you were having these VERY under calorie days - then going way over.

If that is the case then maybe you really need to evaluate those very low calorie days and ask yourself why you couldn't sustain that.

The one thing I've learned from this site is that l have a lot to learn, and am always aware that sometimes, what I'm doing isn't always the wisest thing - AND be willing to change it when it isn't.

Down another pound. Feck yeah!!

I'm jealous!

It's been ages. I was just browsing and I came across this specific post that I'd made several months ago.
My grandpa has since passed away, and I'm so ashamed that I gave up on losing the weight for so long. I'm up 10 (or more) pounds from the weight I was at the time I posted this. I need a kick in the pants again. I want to make my Papa proud, even tho he's not here to see it.
With a healthier outlook, maybe I can succeed this time. I've learned that when I don't have my whole foods, and instead have a processed, fatty, greasy substitute, I feel very sick. My headaches are more frequent, and the fibromyalgia flares badly. So I guess that's an important lesson.
Anyway, I just wanted to update this silly thing, in hopes that it might motivate me to get moving again...and to put it out into the universe that I really miss my Papa.
That's all

Breakfast this morning is a bowl of fresh banana and strawberry slices, a cup of 2% milk, and then a bowl of fresh baby spinach and fresh sliced mushrooms...call me weird, but I love the taste of the stuff. At fitday.com the calories came to around 380. Is that too big of a breakfast?

Then girly girl, get that ass on that treadmill. i know you have one in the basement. It's too cold out to go walking so get on the treadmill and do some weight lifting. Do you still have those CD's I sent you with all the 80's jams? If it will make it more fun for you, tease your hair, put on a leotard and some leg warmers and feel that burn! And lift, lift, lift, lift... Lol!!

Live ya girl, I can't wait to see you and the kiddos. Oh and Scott too!

Hi Krystal, I'm new around here and have reading through your journal. Just keep in mind that it is one day at a time. I used to set these daily goals for myself. (I have this wicked Milky Way weakness) Today, no Milky Way - 2 miles on treadmill. It wasn't always easy. I had a housefull of enablers at the time - 5 teenagers. There was always junkfood around. On Saturday I would reward myself, but I didn't want to blow the whole week so I would allow myself half of a Milky Way. I would savor every bit. Sometimes it was candy, sometimes Ice Cream. Oh yeah, wicked ice cream weakness.

Anyway drop me a line, rant and rave. Your always stronger when you are with a friend.

Thanks so much!

Hubby stuck with me yesterday, which was really nice. We're both such enablers, and when we're not on the same page things go downhill quickly.
I managed to stay around 1100 calories yesterday, which is pretty good considering I can sometimes take in an entire day's worth of calories in one binge. I've had lots of coffee, which I know isn't good, but it's helping to keep the belly satisfied and the sweet tooth at bay. Until we can afford to go on a grocery splurge we're having to get by on what's already in the house. As of this morning, the only fruits and veggies left are in the freezer or in cans, and I'm a spoiled brat...I like my fresh goodies

Things just suck so much since we've slacked off on taking care of ourselves. The kids are kind of wound up, and Tyler is screwing up in school again. Hubby and I are arguing more than we have in two years, and neither one of us are sleeping properly. I'm having more aches and pains than usual, and the fibromyalgia is definitely making itself more noticeable lately. I know I can't blame ALL these things on our diet, but I do blame a lot of it on diet and lack of exercise.

I wish there was a 24 hour TV station that played nothing but reruns of The Biggest Loser, and that BBC show You Are What You Eat. Those kinds of shows really get us fired up and motivated to do better for the day. We need it on in the background at all times. Some of the transformations really get me all weepy. I know what it's like to be the fattest girl in the room. I know how it feels to be so hyper-aware of every single part of your body at all times. "My fat bulge is showing...tug the shirt...hunch the shoulders and hide the breasts...that guy is staring at me...he must think I'm hideous...stand up taller; taller girls look less fat...tighten the jaw to shrink that chin fat...don't cross the legs, it makes the calves thick...walk lightly so you don't shake the floor...tug the shirt again to hide the big ass..."
Ugh, it just never stops.
We want to join a gym, but I can't imagine joining a place where OTHER people will see me work out. OTHER people will see me as the sweaty, out of breath fat girl, desperately trying to keep up with the 3 mph setting on the treadmill. I can't even manage to let my husband see me like that.
Even after 13 years of seeing each other naked; KNOWING that he knows every part of my body, I still can't feel comfortable being nude in front of him. I hide under a blanket or a towel or behind a pillow. How depressing.
When am I going to "get it?" When I'm wheeled into the emergency room with some stranger pounding on my chest to bring me back from a heart attack?
I KNOW I'm not this fat girl. It's not me in the mirror. My skin doesn't match who I am, and it's the most claustrophobic feeling. All this fluff and bulge and extra Krystal...it's just time for it to go.
I'm sorry this got so long. If you're still reading, thank you

hey i was just wondering how much do you weigh or how much are you trying to lose?

Girl, you know you're a hottie regardless of you weight. AND I will preach to you yet again, 1100 calories is not enough!!!! Just think of it as a few more fruits and veggies added to your daily intake. Yum!!

Love ya girl! Thanks for letting me vent to you last night.

Anytime, you know that
And the REAL reason I was able to stay below 1200 was because we're literally OUT of anything fresh. Everything is processed or canned...and I'm a spoiled bitch when it comes to food. LOL
Just wait till next week when we go grocery shopping. I'll eat me some fruuuuiit in a way that would seem obscene

I'm currently sitting at 245. I was at 250 last week, so woohoo for me.
At my heaviest, I was 265. That would have been around October of 2006 I guess. I dropped 30 pounds from then to October of 2007, and was down to around 235...but over the holidays I bulked up again to about 250. So after the slew of numbers I just gave you, I currently weigh 245, and would like to drop 100 pounds. LOL
I'm about 5'6 by the way

When I really want to binge, I mean really bad, I make myself get naked in front of a mirror. Or if you're out and can't do that go into the bathroom and lift up your shirt or pinch your fat rolls or jiggle your belly...it really does help me.