Jerida Raven: Skinny Girl in a Fat Girls Body

Jerida233 · February 7th, 2007, 10:17 AM

"Diets are for people who are thick and tired of it!" I really need to lose weight... really really. I'm so tired of being fat. I'm tired of having to shop plus size and not being able to keep up with my skinny friends. I'm the biggest girl in my family. it SUCKS! So, I talked with two of my friends, Heather and Amanda, and we decided to all get together and try to lose weight. Amanda is cheating, though. She went to the bariatric clinic and got pills, whil Heather and I have to do everything au natural. We have come up with a few dumb things to do while losing weight that I think are great motivators.
-Each pound lost, we put $2 in a jar. When we reach our goal weight, all that money goes towards new clothes.
-Each short term goal we complete (like getting under 260lbs) we put $10 in the jar.
-We each keep journals and share stories and inspiration from our journals.
-Each week, write down something that we wish we were able to do (ie. Tie shoes, fit into the back seats of cars, shop in the juniors sections, etc)
-Weigh atleast every other week.
-Measure once a month.
-Try to beat eachother to the finish line!
Me being the smallest of the 3 of us makes it more important to me because i want to stay that way. I've always been the biggest one, now I'm the smallest...
So, introduction.
My name is Raina (Jerida is my alias) I am 23 years old and live in Greenville SC. I have never been small. I started getting chubby around kindergarten and just kept getting bigger. I gained most of the weight while on Depo Provera (birth control shot) I went from 230 lbs to 280lbs. I started at L.A. Weight Loss where they told me to quit taking th shot. I didn't stick with the program very well because I got bored with it. I lost roughly 20 lbs while there and have put it all back on. I then went to Curves, but I hated going by myself, so I stopped going there, too. My husband and I were married in May 2006 in a renaissance ceremony at Table Rock State Park. It was awesome, but when I tried on my dress it was too tight... I was so upset! I wore it anyway because I didn't have the time or money to take it in to be altered. I was so dissapointed in all of my wedding pictures! I just kept thinking, look how fat you are! Look how much better it would be without the double chin and the flabby arms... I have finally had enough and I really need to get to it and lose this weight! I need to rethink what I feel about food. It's either food or a healthy body. No more boredom eating. No more eating until I about explode. No more fast food. Eat more veggies. GET HEALTHY!
\As of right now here's my weight: 280 lbs. (I'm 5'9") Watch me change.