Hello, if anybody is reading this - I hope you are doing well! I think I may have found a quiet space on the web, not that I was looking for one, but if you're here with me and reading along then I'm happy to have you here! And here I am indeed. Back at it again, with I believe what is my third journal. This time around I'm 30, not 21 or 19, and this time around I think my motivations have matured a bit. It's not all about vanity when you're 30 with heart palpitations and plagued with lethargy. My situation, you ask... well, I'm currently working part-time. I think that not only will this allow me to learn to find balance in my life, but because I can't stay part-time forever, it lends a bit of urgency to the situation. I would like to get back into full time work early in spring 2018 - that leaves me with maybe 4-5 months to, basically, get my shit together. Working full-time in a toxic environment is where I would like to place the blame for my weight gain, but in actuality, the blame is all on me. I didn't cope well with life and now I've found myself far off course, feeling discombobulated, out of touch, and ultimately, 70 lbs overweight. I don't want to turn 31 still in this state and I certainly don't want to waste another day hiding in my apartment because my clothes don't fit and my confidence is dangerously low. 70 lbs. has to go and it has to go now. How do I do this? Daily affirmation, gratitude and logging of this "project" are my tools to stay motivated and accountable. I don't plan on killing it every day, but I do plan on being here every day and celebrating all my successes, big or small. This isn't a fitness challenge, or a weight loss plan. This is life, and this is me taking that first step (again) to start living it. So, all that said, my elliptical is a mere 5 feet away from me, and is probably wondering why I'm giving it shifty side glances. Time to dust it off, dust myself off and get moving! Change isn't going to come sitting in my computer chair!